I've Reached That Point Where Everything Sucks

I hate to say it, but these days sleeping is pointless, because you just get up and start studying again.
Eating also falls under this category.

I've gotten to the depressing part of Paradise Lost. Humanity has fallen, Adam just finished calling Eve a ho, and it's not like the rest of the book has been much fun anyway. It's not even the story that's getting me down, so much as I'm looking at it the from a 'post-religious' perspective (which just means I'm jaded), and it's not the interesting read I always thought it would be.

Now that I think about it, I got the same feeling from reading the apocrypha: one man trying hard to explain away the complexities of the Bible, but doing so from an age-old perspective, to an intended audience that's long dead. To me, it just seems like artifice. Actually, the fact that it's so political just makes it seem more political, but I don't think that makes as much sense to you right now as it does to me. In the end, it all translates to me not caring.

But I'm being unfair. That apathetic feeling I get reading the apocrypha only comes up once in a while with Milton, and that's really a tribute to the guy, considering that I'm starting to get that feeling more and more from reading the Bible. (Apathetic for lack of a better word; I'm not all sure how I feel about it yet).

If Milton read this he might die. I guess he's already dead, so he would have to die again. Or just not like me. Good thing Christianity isn't about reading the Bible all the time. I wonder what he'd think about that?

My roommates are asleep. I think I'll join them.